i feel like i'm becoming someone who doesn't sleep at night nor in the day because of the things i'm thinking about...it is true but i juz dun know how or when or wad...juz feel so weird...sleeping late n waking up super early dun really make sense...having all those stupid dreams really makes me wonder what kind of person i am...so many things troubling me yet i appeared normal to others...i took all the set backs, insults, prejudice, faults as if they were nothing...but the fact is that i no longer have my pride...it was gone the moment i held it in my hands....how come no one notices tat other than my beloved sister? i've already reached a point where breaking down is not a rare sight in my heaven...what i do is meaningless...everything i do makes me uncertain...haix...i'm now juz living for the sake of living, with no goals, no purpose, nothing....i wan to be the person i used to be...someone people will turn to, trust, play with, look up to...but it all seems like a sky...something that i cant reach...as each day passed...the blade is being pushed deeper into my heart...all i need now is someone to take it out for me...willing to share the burden n change me to who i used to be....but it's not going to be easy...