haix...finished watching 1 litre of tears...as mentioned in elicia de blog...why are ppl always thinking of dying when there are ppl who are trying to live their life even though their body don't allow them to...haix...sadded...i'm a person who dont cry easily...but if i did its either hurtful or meaningful....well i did...tis story doesn't only shows how much she suffered but oso how everyone ard her...there are in life ppl who tries very hard to overcome wad reality is...i admire tis friend of mine...she's so strong....dun wanna be very detailed but i juz wanna encourage her..."do wad u think is right for you n ur family" is wad i wanna say...haix....Ikeuchi Aya(if im not wrong)....a person tat is really someone u can look up to....having a life like tat...i would rather die than having ppl staring at me like tat....in the end...she's all alone...i pity her...seriously....haix...comparemyself with her...im juz nothing....she tries so hard to do wad she can cause she dun wanna be left out....yet im here doing nothing...juz cant help to hate myself...i can do things any humans can do...but im not using them...juz feel like a trash...."i'd rather be the one having tat disease" i thought...but no....she thought me alot of things...so im not giving up....no matter how hard it may be...
but i'm suffering...deep down inside i juz cant help but to feel helpless....WAD AM I DOING??????
friends...haix...nvm...now ppl...u gotta realize how hard it is for ur parents....they care for you,they love you,they will do anything for you...but you muz understand they aren't superman or wonder woman...humans aren't perfect...tat includes them...its juz tat maybe they are stressed about their work or juz tired of their life...kids will get tired if they keep studying right?same logic...so as their child we should encourage them...juz a simple "thank you" will surly encourage them....hmm...i dunno you guys but when i was young i actually hated my parents...its really hard for me to be who i am because of them...always being laughed at...dunno why...being poor...hated my brother...in the end...turned violent towards them...but now....i love them more than the world can give...one day if i were to die its them who are going to be with me...so treasure ur family....if not maybe someday u dun get a chance to say sorry to the person u love...hmm...i am who i am...its true tat im poor n stuffs but im sure blessed with great friends...mentioned tat countless of times...but THX!...there are times where i get insults n setbacks...i kept tat in me....my capacity is great...but till the time i breakdown i will oso fall real hard...thx to my friends im able to get up...haix...but i realized tat in life u should stand with ur 2 own feet...have been thinking alot since morning...went out with claudsen n xiaomifeng....i do feel young n happy...but i juz feel very extra...i shouldn't be there..anywhere i go i dun feel right...feel so alone...