im sorry for being hot tempered..
but i really cant give anymore trust..
its not tat i dun wanna give..
but ive been betrayed far too many times..
tis is the last chance i wanna give..
after tat no more..
i really cant hurt myself anymore..
because of this i thought smoking could hurt me cause the pain in my chest was really painful..
but no matter how fast i smoke i still cant be released from the pain in my chest..
smoke can only make me feel like vomitting..
make me feel uneasy..
but tat was the best i can go..
still..
the pain is still there..
being how i was yesterday made me feel like an animal rather than a human..
maybe by nature i am..
but ive thought through..
i shouldn't be the kind of guy to go through romance cause i know it will be a mess..
but still..
love..
really is a strong word..
it can change anything n everything in tis world..
God loved us..
and he is still loving us..
he can change any human to be more like human..
rather than me..
i juz dunno wad to do anymore..
in every phases of life i gotta go through alot problems..
from friends till studies till finance..
name it..
i got everything..
every time i make a decision it can either be good or bad..
but mine juz seemed bad all the time..
even to relationship..
but still..
love..
i really love her..
i really do..
ppl see tat..
but they only know one side of the story..
im always a bad guy no matter wad..
but hav ppl thought through?
who made us the bad guys?
we dun carry a label on our foreheads saying"bad eggs"..
it was u ppl who thought of us as them..
those who turned bad mostly is because they are hurt rather than they wanted to choose..
i still deny tat ive turned bad..
but its up to those ard me to decide..
but still even if i really turned bad..
who will still stick to me as if we r family?