iim_in_lOve_wiTH_flUte

2009-03-31T12:17:00.002+08:00

yo..
i always say i wan post bla bla bla..
but hor..
im lazy..
dunno why feel like wan blog dun blog..
but nvm..
these few days damn sian cause HOLIDAY!!
oso dunno why sian..
everything oso dunno why..
but humans very funny de lor..
bad thing happens complain..
good thing happens oso complain..
haha..
in any case..
these few days kinda busy lor..
oso dunno with wad..
but ya..
busy..
haha!!
the only thing is recently ate not much n exercise at night..
so in a few months time can see my packs!!
HOHO!!
den last night damn cute lor..
i n mu wanted to go jogging de..
but drizzling ma..
den went play frisbee..
haha!!
damn loud la!
imagine 1 am got ping ping pong pong sound..
irritating right?
but nvm..
entertain ourself can le..

2009-03-09T09:18:00.002+08:00

after so long ive decided to come back to blog...
wooo~~~
-.-
you ask why??
cause im too bored to do anything..
things really changed during these times..
and they change fast..
well..
"time will nvr wait for anyone"
very true..
but somehow..
my time has stopped..
somehow..
mine wont move on..
im still living in the past..
im still loving the same person even though we already broke..
im still missing her even right now..
maybe im bounded by promises..
promises we made together saying we wont be apart..
but everything ended juz like tat..
deep in my heart i really cant lose her..
but in reality ive already did..
i juz cant let it go..
i really dunno how to help myself forget abt her..
ive tried everything..
but nth seems to work..
and it seems its getting worst..

ok..
enough of all those..
i'll try to update everyday eventhough i know no will bother to look..
well..
juz to keep all the memories to myself..
really damn bored right now..
but actually i shd be in sch..
hehe..
but really dunno..
i really miss her till i really dunno wad to do when i got up..
so..
ive decided to stay at home in the morning..
-.-
nvm..
ill end here for today..

2008-05-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

yay!!
RING RING RING RING RING!!!

2008-03-20T17:42:00.002+08:00

im sorry for being hot tempered..
but i really cant give anymore trust..
its not tat i dun wanna give..
but ive been betrayed far too many times..
tis is the last chance i wanna give..
after tat no more..
i really cant hurt myself anymore..
because of this i thought smoking could hurt me cause the pain in my chest was really painful..
but no matter how fast i smoke i still cant be released from the pain in my chest..
smoke can only make me feel like vomitting..
make me feel uneasy..
but tat was the best i can go..
still..
the pain is still there..
being how i was yesterday made me feel like an animal rather than a human..
maybe by nature i am..
but ive thought through..
i shouldn't be the kind of guy to go through romance cause i know it will be a mess..
but still..
love..
really is a strong word..
it can change anything n everything in tis world..
God loved us..
and he is still loving us..
he can change any human to be more like human..
rather than me..
i juz dunno wad to do anymore..
in every phases of life i gotta go through alot problems..
from friends till studies till finance..
name it..
i got everything..
every time i make a decision it can either be good or bad..
but mine juz seemed bad all the time..
even to relationship..
but still..
love..
i really love her..
i really do..
ppl see tat..
but they only know one side of the story..
im always a bad guy no matter wad..
but hav ppl thought through?
who made us the bad guys?
we dun carry a label on our foreheads saying"bad eggs"..
it was u ppl who thought of us as them..
those who turned bad mostly is because they are hurt rather than they wanted to choose..
i still deny tat ive turned bad..
but its up to those ard me to decide..
but still even if i really turned bad..
who will still stick to me as if we r family?

2008-03-15T20:04:00.002+08:00

hoho..
today woke up late for band sia..
in the end rush..
den i nvr iron my clothes..
-.-
cause going out with baby..
n she wear nice nice..
n its really nice!
she wore yellow n black!
xiaomifeng!!
hoho!!
really nice la..
really suits her..
anyway..
reach band room..
i thought i was late..
in the end so little ppl!
anyway..
did same things like any other days..
so sian la..
n my flute today super flat la..
normally only pull out a certain length..
i did the same thing but today flat 40!
den in the end push in all the way..
1st time sia..
den wait for band to quickly end..
cause baby in sch waiting for me!!
so happy la!
but made her wait..
(cause teacher talking..abt stupid stuffs some more..)
im sorry!!
den went out!!
today was the most enjoyable day ever!
maybe took alot pics la..
(too bad cant post..T.T )
but i really enjoyed!
1st went tm eat pizza hut!
wanted go pasta mania..
but too many ppl..
so went pizza hut..
ate alot la..
till now super full..
not bad sia..
only 40 bucks..
but eat till full..
after tat went wisma..
(dunno spell correct or not?)
den went to sony ericsson de shop cause baby de bro de phone need to go for service..
den we at the shop take alot of pics..
all very nice la!!!
i like!!
1st time go out take so many pics sia..
hoho!!
den went hougang mall..
shop for her clips den went home..
den on bus got 1 uncle..
he change clothes sia..
luckily on top deck only me n baby..
sent her home le den wait for bus..
den jiu home le..
~~today i really enjoyed my day with baby..
even though the time spent together today is really short..
but quality time was spent..
not quantity..
i love my baby!!
ILOVEYOU!~~

2008-03-13T20:28:00.003+08:00

played during sectionals..hehe..
after buying tickets..n! outside the theater it showed "L change the grand chathy"..haha!
after band went for lunch..i look soooo shy..haha!
all the guys..all so handsome sia..haha!

sentosa!

2008-03-13T16:04:00.002+08:00

yo!
im being forced to blog..
T.T
anyway..
long time nvr blog le!
always say wan blog wan blog..
in the end..
well..
to start..
i wanna complain..
sch life can be so boring la..
waking up early in the morning..
waiting for buses squeezing with ppl..
so bored!!
ok la..
i really love my classes..
but its like im so damn lazy in the morning la..
really shd go take license tis year..
at least get a motor..
hmm..
things are gonna get fun!
but thinking too much la..
but i'm really planning to get license tis year!
past few weeks kinda boring..
but luckily got band..
hoho..
went out with them quite a num of times..
they r very interesting la!!
but hmm..
i'm super shy laaaa..
hehe..
will be posting some pics later..

now..
back to wad im posting for..
im being forced by my baby..
T.T
haha..
she's so cute la..
let us go back in time..
to monday..
-.-
met baby at cp..
(i wanted to wait for her on the 1st lvl..but cant wait to see her..so went lrt there..in the end she missed me..den went basement to find her.. -.-)
haha..
took mrt to plaza sing..
omg la..
no ppl..
(-.- only 10+ in the morning..)
so went up to buy tics..
n i realised..
VERY LONG NVR WATCH MOVIE WITH BABY LE!!
hoho!
as im typing now im still very happy..
=)
so..
went mac ate breakfast..
kinda romantic..
haha!!
(only im feeling tat way.. -.-)
went arcade..
played awhile..
den go for movies..
hoho..
watched the leap years!
hmm..
how to say..
i dun recommend love at 1st sight la..
but the story is good..
after movies actually wanted to go pasta mania eat..
but im quite full eating popcorn..
so is she..
haha!
we finished to whole thing!!
n is WE..
not me..
haha!
n besides..
she owes me a meal for being late!!
so thx baby!
love you!
anyway..
nth to do..
so..
the rest of the day we spent together happily!!
(not going to say where wad or anything..)
haha!

baby!!
iloveyou!!

2008-01-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

well..
today woke up at 5+ n msg baby..
miss her so much..
but of course she slping(xiaozhuzhu)..
anyway..
played maple with my bro..
den called baby..
she's sooooooo cute la..
den she reaching sch..
T.T..
den watch anime till 10+ den bathe den journeyed to sch..
well the thing i dun like abt public transport is u gotta squeeze..
IRRITATING!
anyway..
emphasize on tat later..
went class..
n ONCE again..
NO AIRCON!!
so hot can!
the class was kinda big so we split into 2 classes..
1 n 2..
i was in 1..
mr chew's class..
OMG!!
wad he is saying no one understands!
i was kinda irritated..
but nvm..
den do drawings..
but the thing is..
WE DUNNO WAD IS WAD!
so i asked hem..
n he was oso like "er..hmm..i think is...."
is was like..
"like tat i oso know!"
anyway..
after class went home(kinda anti-social)..
reached home chat with baby awhile den i went play soccer..
did alot stupid stuffs la!
i was laughing instead of playing..
den dinner at cp..
wanted to go mu's house..
but tired..
so i guess i'll be ending here..
anyway..
saw xin yu today..
n we was like didnt notice each other..
haha!

2008-01-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

oh my tian..com spoil for sooo long..so bored! anyway..boring week..wad i wanna say is..I MET DAR DAR YESTERDAY!!! hoho..anyway..kinda tired..blog next time..(hopefully com dun spoil!)

2008-01-13T15:46:00.000+08:00

nth to do since its weekends..
but yesterday went for band audition..
before tat i was at home talking to baby over the phone..
i was super nervous can..
den actually thought of not going..
so i told baby..
den baby was like scolding me..
so in the end i went..
reached school ard 130+?
den waited..
quite a few num of ppl..
den was ask to fill a form..
so filled..
waited quite some time..
went to warm up..
my tone n all was like sux la..
den chatted with a few ppl..
when it was my turn i was thinking..
"can i go home?"
but too late..
next thing i knew i was in the room..
there was an ang moh inside(n some few students..)
he asked me to play skills n apagios(dunno how to spell)..
den asked me play c major octave..
i was like.."erm..do u know the fingering for top b?"
-.-
feel so paiseh la..
den found the fingering out..
den say"oh..i juz wanna know wad note u can reach.."
i can reach top c wan ok..
but stop at b..
oh well..
den say i got a nice tone(-.-..i was thinking if mr neo was there he'd probably get angry..)
den sight read..
oh my gosh!
i anyhow played the song..
i read through once before i played..
the next thing i know i'm playing liao..
dun really know how's the piece suppose to go but i juz play by feel..
yea..
den was like waiting for dad to come fetch me cause no more $$$ for transport..
while waiting was again talking to baby..
den jasmine mei mei called...
asked me"kor..hav $$$?"
i was like "y?"..
wad we said i dun wanna blog..
so..
dad came..
went back..
was sitting behind..
damn hot!!
den argue with baby over the phone because of something..
the conversation kinda hot(as in angry)..
den she said something kinda hurtful..
but nvm...
i still love her..
anyway..
today kinda sian day..
went mumu's house..
met simon in the lift outside mu's lift..
den play play..
den met arthur n joshua..
den now at mu's house..
going home to talk to baby!!
n my com spoil..
so sad la..
but..
GOING TO MEET BABY SOON!!!
hoho!
I LOVE BABY!!!

2008-01-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

didn't explain..simon was playing psp initial d..
as u can see..
he is turning right..
den did a sudden brake..
n of course..
overtaken by opponent..
HAHA!!!

2008-01-11T20:00:00.001+08:00

boring lectures..
{[Bus Stop 5™]}
{[Bus Stop 5™]}
taken from my sch..nice?
bad accident
wow(the bus went off like nth happened..but look at the taxi!)..

2008-01-11T19:21:00.000+08:00

HOHO!!
back to blogging!
alot has happen last year but let the past be bygones(not insect spray)!
to start..
im finally back to school!!!
YAY!!
well..
got into simei ITE..
course im taking is chemical processing..
sounds kinda cool n all..
but!
seems kinda hard even for 1st few lessons(maybe my brains didnt really exercise..-.-)..
anyway..
since day one orientation till now ive been eating lollipops..
n really is eat all the time..
somehow..
i got a nick name called lollipop guy..
some juz calls me lollipop..
my class kinda interesting la..
1st day like know each other for weeks-.-..
but im one of the quietest is class..
surprising huh?
anyway..
got to know the class quite well for 1st week..
ive already befriended some of the ppl..
and can say quite close already..
got to know ____(by order)
-iskandar(is)
-amos(cookie guy)
-arul(youngest in class..15!)
-sicho(tats his english name! sicko)
and many more..(they are the closest)

theres alot of jokers in my class..
n when i thought our class was noisy..T.T
had mass lecture with class L(mine is M)..
they was like soooooo noisy cann..
got irritated..
haha..
class is getting more interesting..
alot to say..
but save it for later..

i'll be posting things tat happened today onwards n some pics later on..

went to sch in the morning(damn early la)..
went for class for 1/2 hour?
den went to hav a mass talk with the DOS(director of section?or is it school?)..
den was like saying stuffs we already know..
so obviously the right thing to do was.....slp!
was fidgeting for quite some time..
but finally settled down..
n i really slpt!
after tat went to toilet(really urgent)..
supposing to hav class..
but all said go home..
so i went eat lor..
ate with is n arul..
tat cute guy has a crush with some girl..haha!
so we was like.."hey..wanna get her num?"
i was thinking of helping him..
but it will be to strange when i hand her my phone cause my wallpaper is a pic of baby..
so we waited..
know wad happened?
nth..-.-
so went to tamp to window shop..
but arul gtg..
so said bb at the interchange..
so is n i went walking ard..
met alvan in his working place..
den is n alvan chatted(i was like bored!)..
went mac..den forgot gtg to grandma's place..
so i went off..
is pei-ed me to bus-stop
after tat i went sch to see baby!(is n alvan went bugis with is's friend)
den saw jasmine mei mei in cp..
so pei mei mei chat..
she's like so troubled..
so i treated her mac..
after tat went ah ma's place..
reach home..
blog..
oh ya!
n bought something for baby!
she's gonna love it..
but tis only warm up..
wait till 28th..
hoho!
she's gonna be sooo touched(ppl..some of u with dirty minds..dun anyhow think!)..
so chatted with her..
den she went do homework..
kinda sad cause i didnt really see her tis year..
but soon!
HOHO!

n one last thing..
I GOT A PHONE!!

2007-08-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

imagine one day..u inherited a world full of wonderful things..ur wish ,ur desire~everything tat u nvr dreamed u hav or had...juz comes to u...curiously...u went to find for tat person who gave u all tis...she was there...u went to her...asking.."wads all tis?"..she said"urs.."on the verge of tears u hugged her n always remembered her...for whoever she was she gave her all to u...but as days passes by u realized tat she often appeared infront of u like she always did...tis time it was very hard to find her..u searched everywhere..n managed to locate her...u saw tat she somehow was troubled..in concern u went up to her...wanted to console her...but wad u got back was an earful of lectures...slowly..everything tat was meant to be urs slowly became invisible...its still there..but..invisible...ur heart will think.."haha...as long as i can feel its ok...cause its there..."..but ur mind will think"omg!! i cant see it...~panic~is it still there or is it long gone?"

wad im trying to say here is tat sometimes...ppl tends to forget tat surrounding them r ppl tat actually cared for them cause they somehow influenced their lifes...those ppl tat r forgotten will most likely think wad their minds thought..not how the heart feels..so in life...u gotta pay attention to ppl...they might give a small hint to u tat they r hurt somewhere n wanted u to care for them...

HAHA! kindda serious huh? hmm...somehow tis juz came to my mind...SO! ~la la la la la~

2007-08-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

yoyo..so LONG~~~~~ nvr blog le...anyway..2 days back having alumni chalet..quite interesting for me though..er..play pool bbq blah blah blah...oh ya! play pool lose to simon 4 times..GOSH!! he really won me 1 time..the rest all lost by default...anyway..a lost is still a lost..gotta admit defeat..so can get better to beat him..im sure next time no more le...WHAHAHAHA!!!anyway..after bbq sat down chat awhile...kindda emo-ed awhile...thinking of someone...then went walk walk...after tat..came back play sps(sissors paper stone)against jian how with bennett john n andy...haha..jian how's face was like sooooo red la...he got alotttt back up..but anyway..drank till kindda drunk...but still...able to know wad im doing...sooo unlike bennett...haha! when he puked..alfred(who was already drunk like me..)n i went to buy tea for him...but...saw cops n was being held back..luckily..we r good drinkers..can act like nothing like tat...went back...he already aslp...but..heard he did alot funny stuffs..then went to bed...omg...gotta squezze on bed...the worst thing is...im the only guy..so cannot move abt too much...cause u know...girls r very grumpy when u wake them up...so...anyway..woke up...they said i snored!! i admit la...i do snore...but they said very loud..i muz recored down next time..anyway...homed...shower n went to look for dear...so sian la...cause something happened at home...so sorry dear...

dearrr...imissu...exams coming le...muz jiayou...i try not to call u or disturb u...gotta do well for ur studies...all i can give to u now is my support..so jiayou!!!dearrrr...imissu alot la...ily!!(=

2007-08-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

1.(the person who tag you is ...)Ailing ,Arthur ,Esther ,Kimberly ,Singyee
2.(your relationship with him/her is ...) ALL GOOD FRIENDS! 2 BELOVED JUNIORS
3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..) Ailing-quiet,funny,lame,sometimes serious n..QUITE AN ENTERTAINER!! Arthur-funny,lame,emo,can go kbox de n MUSHROOM!!! Esther-FUNNY!!,lovable,qian da-able,funny,somehow a little ah lian(haha!) n...MY DARLING(junior)!!! Kimberly-slow,slower,slowest,more slow n retard..HAHA!! nono..blur,slow,very funny,CUTE! n...HARDWORKING!! Singyee-1st of all...MY SWENSENS!!! haha...funny,cute at times,VERY SERIOUS WHEN IT COMES TO WORK,a very good person to find when stress n..emo quite alot..
4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you) Ailing-willing to talk on the phone with me..Arthur-doing quite alot of stuffs for me back then..Esther-tat faithful day we spent together..u know? simpsons? Kimberly-able to let me pinch her..HAHA! Singyee-enjoyed talking stupid stuffs..haha..
5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you) Ailing-~~~~~~~~~(basically..silence..)Arthur-hahaha? cause always laughing..so..counted as memorable ok..Esther-"u dun say i bu yao li ni!"(or something like tat)Kimberly-haha...its either forgot or dun hav..sorry!Singyee-SWNESENS!!
6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..) haha..they are really good..but im not interested..haha!
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) nvr gonna happen! even though is if..
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...) i wont hate them..but if they were my enemies..i'll love them more..
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...) wait till tat day ba..
10.(the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is ...) STUDIES!!!
11.(your overall impression of him/her is ...)ILOVETHEM ALL!!
12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?) its up to them to feel how they feel abt me..13.(the character you love of yourself are ...) hmm..able to pull through difficult times???(but now kindda hard..T.T)
14.(on the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ...) i dun hate myself!
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is ...) i wanna be myself..er..successful 1..
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..) er..iloveyou?
17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
{{not in any order..realized..not much guys..}}
1.Arthur
2.Ailing
3.Singyee
4.Kimberly
5.Jessica
6.Esther
7.Elicia
8.Yixuan
9.Sky
10.Joash
11.(who is no.6 having relationship with?) simin natalie jasmine jesselyn ME!!! hoho...
12.(Is no.9 a male or female?) male.
13.(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) er..impossible!!! friends la..
14.(How about no.8 and 5?) er..hello? 2 girls? besides..1 is attached..
15.(What is no.2 studying about?) er..art..of silence..
16.(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) now..
17.(What kind of music band does no.8 like?) band music n anime songs!
18.(Does no.1 has any siblings?) 1 brother...omg..same..haha!
19.(Will you woo no.3?) best friends!
20.(How about no.7?) my dearest sis!! (mommy oso can..haha!)
21.(Is no.4 single?) er..~whistle whistle whistle~
22.(What's the surname of no.5?) NEO!!
23.(What's the hobby of no.4?) likes SOTONG!!
24.(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) oooook la...
25.(Where is no.2 studying at?) Compassvale Sec!.
26.(Talk something casually about no.1) MUSHROOM!!MUSHROOM!!
27.(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?) best friends!!
28.(Where does no.9 live at?) SERANGOON!
29.(What color does no.4 like?) PINK!
30.(Are no.5 and no.1 best friends?) YEA!!
31.(Does no.7 likes no.2?) er..dun really know each other..
32.(How do you get to know no.2?) BAND!
33.(Does no.1 have any pets?) no!
34.(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)she thinks she is la...but to me..she is..~puke~haha!..no la...quite oooook la...

2007-06-26T08:28:00.002+08:00

first pic of the day...haha...ding xiang says it looks like do re mi...to me is do re fa...HAHA!
haha...second pic of the day....nice? YEA! VERY!
haha...xiao mi feng........................................................................mei mei...she's so CUTE!!! (she didnt want me to post cause she say her eyes very small...oooook la...)
look so much cooler....but cant see her...haha...i'm too tall for her i guess...HAHA!

took a day before concert....

2007-06-26T08:17:00.000+08:00

yo...so long nvr post le...hmm...nth much happened...other than we juz finished our alumni concert...can say everything went quite well...no major hic cups n got the recording...well...VERY NICE!! other than its a bad recording...alot cracky sound....haha...well...looked very handsome but only take a few pics...haha...will be posting soon? well...anyway...no more band le....my kingdom of boredness is coming...i'll be trying to post questions rather than my life stories next time...questions tat is really worth thinking for....anyway...haha...nth more to say le...bb...

2007-06-14T03:03:00.000+08:00

even if im in a cold place shivering...my tears will always warm me up...

2007-06-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

haix...finished watching 1 litre of tears...as mentioned in elicia de blog...why are ppl always thinking of dying when there are ppl who are trying to live their life even though their body don't allow them to...haix...sadded...i'm a person who dont cry easily...but if i did its either hurtful or meaningful....well i did...tis story doesn't only shows how much she suffered but oso how everyone ard her...there are in life ppl who tries very hard to overcome wad reality is...i admire tis friend of mine...she's so strong....dun wanna be very detailed but i juz wanna encourage her..."do wad u think is right for you n ur family" is wad i wanna say...haix....Ikeuchi Aya(if im not wrong)....a person tat is really someone u can look up to....having a life like tat...i would rather die than having ppl staring at me like tat....in the end...she's all alone...i pity her...seriously....haix...comparemyself with her...im juz nothing....she tries so hard to do wad she can cause she dun wanna be left out....yet im here doing nothing...juz cant help to hate myself...i can do things any humans can do...but im not using them...juz feel like a trash...."i'd rather be the one having tat disease" i thought...but no....she thought me alot of things...so im not giving up....no matter how hard it may be...but i'm suffering...deep down inside i juz cant help but to feel helpless....WAD AM I DOING??????
friends...haix...nvm...now ppl...u gotta realize how hard it is for ur parents....they care for you,they love you,they will do anything for you...but you muz understand they aren't superman or wonder woman...humans aren't perfect...tat includes them...its juz tat maybe they are stressed about their work or juz tired of their life...kids will get tired if they keep studying right?same logic...so as their child we should encourage them...juz a simple "thank you" will surly encourage them....hmm...i dunno you guys but when i was young i actually hated my parents...its really hard for me to be who i am because of them...always being laughed at...dunno why...being poor...hated my brother...in the end...turned violent towards them...but now....i love them more than the world can give...one day if i were to die its them who are going to be with me...so treasure ur family....if not maybe someday u dun get a chance to say sorry to the person u love...hmm...i am who i am...its true tat im poor n stuffs but im sure blessed with great friends...mentioned tat countless of times...but THX!...there are times where i get insults n setbacks...i kept tat in me....my capacity is great...but till the time i breakdown i will oso fall real hard...thx to my friends im able to get up...haix...but i realized tat in life u should stand with ur 2 own feet...have been thinking alot since morning...went out with claudsen n xiaomifeng....i do feel young n happy...but i juz feel very extra...i shouldn't be there..anywhere i go i dun feel right...feel so alone...

2007-06-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY!!!
i am a hypocrite, a coward,everything....no one understands..
so long nvr blog le...juz dunno wad to blog....well last friday n saturday went alumni with elicia cause simon n yi xuan had exams break for chinese...haha...sat after band went to eat with elicia ,saifu n one more shuqun de...juz like saifu oso...haha...then last sunday went SUN TANNING!!!! cool huh?..haha...went with elicia,ger n miao yuan...haha...wentmeet them at 11...by right is 9 de...but elicia lazy...forever her de...haha...then meet elicia at my house de bus stop...then walk together to cp meet them...on the way there quite sian...cause no mood...but still i SOOOOO long nvr talk to miao yuan le...its like tats the second time i saw him tis year...sadded....he forever very funny de...HAHA!! then went vivo first...walk walk then went sentosa...haha...bought $3 ticket(ok la sy....swensens then swensens la)...quite cool the train...but the ticket VERY STUPID DE LOR!!!! made of paper...n mine onli use 1 time...after tat dunno y cant work...so went down to beach...wow...heaven man...saw alot ppl playing volleyball....miao yuan n i wanted to join in..but dun wan la...later ppl wan our hp num....then i'll have to say"sorry girls...i dun have hp.." WHAHAHA!!!! but we not as tico as ger....while we're crossing the bridge we saw tis ang moh lady...NVR WEAR ANYTHING TO COVER THE TOP SIA!!!!didnt see quite clearly...but ger very funny lor....cause hot ma...then the bridge oso VERY HOT!!! burning our feet....haha...but ger hop over n keep saying"NAKED,NAKED"..HAHA!!! FUNNY LOR!!! WE WAS LIKE LAUGHING AT HIS STUPID REACTION!!! haha....then miao yuan ger n i revealed our six packs to the world!!! WHAHAHAHA!!!..lol...at first went to sea very sian...then move bac...so hav to go over tat bridge AGAIN...BURNT MY FEET LOR!!!! haha...got over the other side....but tis time we chatted since it has been a long time tat we talked together....not realizing the time...den went to vivo eat...ate pastamania....cool man...but starting have some problems...but we managed to pull through....haha...saw xiao qiang...then went off....hmm...after tat nothing much lor....haha...tis sat celebrating MIAO YUAN'S BIRTHDAY!!!sadded...he gotta ask us...cuase we didnt know...poor guy...haix...reminds me of my birthday last year oso...last year...my birthday was like any other day...nth happened...but wad surprises me was tat yoke ting n pei shan gave me a present n a slice of cake...well actually they went to robin de house...but i was touched....thinking of it really make me wanna cry....imagine ur whole sec sch life make de friend all forgotten abt u....well...im a soloist in this world...gotta get used to it...haix...tis year i think its oso gonna be the same....tis kindda of F*&# always happened on me....i'm still not used to tis kind of life...I HATE IT!!!FREAK MAN!!!!...to tis point i juz cant help but to feel emptiness....a world where nothing exists....lost in a darkness....tats how i can describe with words...haix...i hav a grudge with the world...sometimes i dunno y im in tis world...lost my reason....

well...my definition of a FRIEND
1.they gotta get along well with you
2.is someone u r willing to talk to
3.knows how u feel,so tat he/she knows how to react
4.willing to share thier problems with u
5.always laugh at each other regardless of logic(tat is almost laugh at anything)
6.knows ur strengths n weaknesses...
7.remember you as you...not as anyone else...
8.n MOST IMPORTANTLY...CARE FOR YOU...

yea...tat is wad friends are for....hmm...can see i dun hav much...hhaha...

N YA!!! XIAOMIFENG N NAT CALLED ME!!! whahaha...really miss them both....nvm...they coming bac soon le...HAHA!!! XIAOMIFENG!!!!...lol...yea...i think tats all for now...gotta wake up before 5...free mac in the morning sia...meeting sy at 7...then meeting esther....haix...busy day tmr....hav alumni oso...haha...so....mina-san....oyasumi....

2007-05-24T03:09:00.000+08:00

hahax...went cycling with gerald n elicia...at first went cp eat...then go munir house lend bike....so went jalan kaya for prata...THX GERALD!!!so after tat cycle cycle cycle till reach tat veri nice there de park behind...HAHA...talk alot lor...so long nvr like tat chat le...we from dreams say till aliens...then progress to Gods...haha...then went bac....WHA!!! i was like freaking f*cked by tis link xinyu sent me...gosh...so scary lor....xia dao...half my life gone le....anyway...its because of scary talks we had...GOSH!!!haix...Xiao Mi Feng fly le...miss her SOOOOOO MUCH!!! wanted to send her off...but she say no need...so nvr go...in any case...called her when she left her house till airport....she's like so early...but Nat earlier...cause her sister oso going overseas...haha...she waited for taxi for SOOO LONG LOR...kept hearing her say taxi nvr stop....haha...but manage to get in one...so talked till she met up with Nat...then went back slp....haha...she called again...so woke up...she ask me go bac slp...but cant...cause she leaving le....so talk talk talk...talk to wen xuan oso...but fed up with him...gosh...I MISS MY XIAOMIFENG!!!!

2007-05-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

what happened today was woke up...wanted to play maple...but no feel...so went in kill some monster then log off...gosh...game sever down till later 2pm...gosh...haha...so around 1230+ called Xiao Mi Feng then have to wait till 1+ cause my mum not home yet...so i went to watch anime....then my mum came back...so i showered n went to meet Xiao Mi Feng n Natalie(i kept my promise hor...i dun like to break them...so i wan my 1 YEAR"S SUPPLY OF APPLEPIES!!!!!)...when i reached there Natalie told me tat y didnt i shower while waiting for my mum...i was like..."hmm...ya hor!"..lol...then went walk walk...after tat bac at mac eat...THX NATALIE FOR THE APPLEPIE......haha...then Natalie was caught by the new vp...suai...haha...frankly speaking...i dun like her...i thought Mrs Ang CMI le...come 1 more...tis time even worst...haha...so went to mrt cause Nat gotta go home....then jess came to us...then tok tok tok...haha...Kenneth still so cute...HAHA..so we went off...Xiao Mi Feng n me walked to buy her "stuffs"...i wanted to help her carry stuffs cause later she cant grow taller...haha...pretty heavy....so hav to resort to my plans...its called "steal a plastic bag from a bee"...HAHA!! lol...i succeeded..WHAHAHA!!! went comics connection cause she wanted to buy straws...then went all the way down to withdraw money ..haha..then went back up...i was like tired of walking...so took lift...then she very cute...say"huh? wan take lift?"...i was like "duh, does this looks like the toilet"...haha...then bought her straws...then walk ard cp...haha..she SO CUTE...haha...went kiddy palace...den go browse toys...haha...actually she waiting for her mum to come cp...in the end..ps her..haha..so she went home...so as mitang i sent her home...OH MY GOSH!!! SHE'S SO CUTE!!! haha....then did alot of stupid stuffs...haha...after tat went Munir's house to play...n i bought 2 applepie earlier...wanted to eat 2...but he want so i shared...actually no money to buy 1 more...hahawhen reach his house the applepie turned cold...was waiting for Jun Jie...but in the end...psk...haha...so i went home eat a little then went cp with Munir...AGAIN!...den on the way there i very tired le...i said i wan close my eyes...u know wad he said? "eyes closing...please stand clear of me....tu tu tu tu tu"...lol...i was like continuing..."next station...dreamworld"..HAHA...kinda lame...but i enjoyed it...haha...guess wad?..i'm bac at mac...AGAIN!! he wanted to try the grilled chicken foldover...so went mac...n AGAIN i ate APPLEPIE!!!haha...
after finish went home..on the way bought waffles...with butter...very hot...then all the butter melt..so on the way finished..left quite alot og melted butter..i challenged myself to drink it...n i did...haha...lol...super lame...i told munir"muz do stupid stuff while u r young..."haha..lol...reached home...msn...wanted to call Xiao Mi Feng...but she busy...so watch anime...but now...vexed with the things around me...cant really slp...but..TIRED!! haha...but im sure to doze off while watching anime...haha...XIAOMIFENG!!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS BU YAO LI WO!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-21T02:13:00.001+08:00

hmm...COOL!!!
Esther's birthday!! children below 16 cant play with fire...
hmm...actually my hair in tis pic (to me) very nice...
haha...found tis pic...juz find it very memorable...2005
emo
act cool...
pics at daiso...IMM

2007-05-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

haha...so long never post le...been kinda boring...hmm...alumni concert coming...on the 23rd of june....so if anyone is interested plz call me..haha...now practice on fridays n saturdays...quite stressful for me...cause its like i got ALOT of mistakes to correct...scared..but i'm beginning to like all the repertoires....so muz jiayo...cannot change pieces...n im glad tat elicia,yixuan n simon joined alumni(only for tis concert...after tat go for studies break...then next year come back)haha...at least for now got ppl pei wo...very happy being with them...can crap can talk can do alot of stuffs...but these past few days very boring de lor....at home watch anime...go mac buy applepie...n i dunno why i'm like somehow addicted to it....HAHA! very nice...then go entertain myself by being with xiao mi feng(in a good way)...HAHA!!cute lehx her...my gosh...but sadly she flying overseas for tis china exchange on wednesday...sadded.... T.T gonna miss her...hmm...i think i gonna stop here now...but i gonna post pics! YEA!!

2007-05-08T04:20:00.000+08:00

i promised everyone tat i would slp if im tired....i did...but see...still awake...haix...my right hand really is killing me...its so so so so painful!!!anyway...after concert...i will go for a check up....haix...anyway yesterday was Esther's birthday!!! yea!!!... went to meet XiaoMiFeng ,Jasmine ,Jesselyn n Natalie...then on the way saw claudsen...haha...he very cute oso...then we went to cp to write esther's de card....haha...then they play play play...i was like quite staring in the blank...but either way...being with kids can be quite fun...somehow made me think of last time...then wait for sky n jj....they came n change clothes....then went to....PIZZA HUT!!! thz sky....we sat down n went to buy cake....then went back....ate n stuff...then munir came...joined us...then talk talk talk..after tat came my house de playground celebrated esther's birthday...actually wanted to suprised her with a cake...in the end jj lost the lighter...haix...after tat slack n home-ed...now im suffering...physically n mentally ...who can understand???

2007-05-07T06:34:00.000+08:00

i've done more then i should....i still cant forgive myself....

2007-05-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

am i wrong? i stand on a very firm ground tat i'm right....but now it seems tat im wrong....so u're telling me tat i misunderstood everything? it doesn't seem tat way to me...both of ur nicks n blogs are too much of a coincidence...is it tat i mistaken the conversation we had? wad really is happening???? someone tell me....

2007-05-06T10:02:00.000+08:00

living through my forth day....meeting elicia n ger...ger sick...i oso...so muz pei him....anyway...sorry xiao mi feng....again i failed....i need a hammer or something...haix...tell me wad to do...to get free....

2007-05-06T03:53:00.000+08:00

thinking abt wad i wrote...harsh?? tats the reality...haix...im the stupid 1...seriously...thinking abt wad had happened...gosh...cant slp!! third night le....stressing my body also feels stupid...but tats the best i can do....if anyone were to be me, they would feel the pain...cant believe im still alive...body aching, mind thinking...wha...can tell me how?im tired...very tired...tried slping but...look...still awake...ppl tell me tis...my brain tells me tat...my heart tells me something even more unbelievable...

2007-05-06T01:46:00.000+08:00

still cant sleep...eaten almost nothing(thx my aunt for the cake n iced mocha, thx xiao mi feng n esther for the cheese fries....munir fir the nuggets n fries n lastly elicia for the breakfast...)...somehow...not feeling hungry...in fact not feeling anything...but deep down im hurt...
SLEEP!!!!!!SOMETHING I NEED!!!!!!

2007-05-04T03:55:00.000+08:00

how selfish can u be??? i wont hurt myself....dun worry...im already hurt by the way....wad more can i have? it has always been you you you you n you....n all thx to u im here right now blogging tis....1 key point u gotta change is ur INSENSITIVITY....1 day u will lose all ur friends if u dun change...well...u already lost 1...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! CANT SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: September 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world.
You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.
Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.
Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done.

Your strength: Your inner peace

Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds

Your power color: Emerald

Your power symbol: Leaf

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Sensitivity Score: 70%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you.
You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down.
But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

2007-05-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

the more i say"its ok" the more i doubted....it really seems to me im an extra....i tried but i still cant bring to myself tat....juz now was the last time....i did say later but no more....cant handle it any longer...if i continued...i'd be a hypocrite....n im stupid enough to think tat everything's fine....well....everything's fine...at least not for me...two of u continue playing then....i quit....next time dun bother to talk to me...seriously...wad am i to you? A TOY? to think i'm willing to share my feelings with u....guess i've wasted all those nights....

2007-05-02T02:17:00.000+08:00

gosh...IM SICK!!!! i think its due to the rain tat time we went chalet...munir oso...haha...juz now went his house...when leaving his mum asked me wad happened(i think im too sick till she can see...or maybe because im holding to rolls of used tissues)...haha....then said dun go out too often....later pass the sickness to munir.......i was like haha....but haix...munir oso sick...then went home...gosh...very xin ku....its like i wanna slp but kept coughing n sneezing...n the worst thing is having sore throat....so xiao mi feng...u wont be hearing me singing for quite sometime.....speaking of which...today went swimming in the morning with elicia n gereld.....by right xiao qiang coming...but in the end heavy colour light friend....haha...then swim swim swim....quite funny though...but cant remember wad happened...then went to meet xiao mi feng....haha...she SO CUTE LOR!!!! then walked with her from the church to cp....super funny man....she's so cute....haha...its fun la...being with her...even though very troubled by the thing tat is happening....but i still manage to go out k....then met esther....after tat went mac to wait for jj...in the end...he immediately went my house....wait for nothing...went to get myself a macflurry....so long nvr eat le....haha...then when leaving i went to get an applepie....so they told me they are going to popular....so i went home....reach le i used to toilet roll in my room till no more....so i went to the toilet to get more....HAHA....then jj came(or is it came liao? dunno...)...then xiao mi feng n esther came....they was like laughing so loudly...haha...but quite funny though....they laughing at nothing de lor...i was like staring them n see wad they were doing...haha...i cant find a thing to laugh lor....haha...but seeing how xiao mi feng laughed really reminds me of my sec sch life...haix...the time where we spent most of our time together....playing, laughing n stuffs......now? dun even feel like im existing....even though i know im dying soon....HAHA!!! lol....then they went off at 6+...but jj still with me...n i realized i received a msg from sing yee...telling me jess wanna go for dinner....i was like"later i 1 side again how....always like tat)so nvr go....then went munir's house....then reached home n slept at 10 plus...gosh...really slept....can see how sick i am....then juz woke up...haix...so sick.....n now like having fever lor....you nvr gave anyone any chances....how to know? can you like reject me???at least im not waiting for anything...its really hard waiting for someone....the worst is u dun even know if she likes you....well...no use troubling on tis...i know im an extra....it has always been tis way...no use doing stuffs tat embarrasses myself....im gonna be me....i wanna ask...wad my existence means to anyone.?? i lost tat reason along the way...someone tell me....
im really hoping for my tears to dry....but now its like free flow...juz like my mucus....haha...anyway...ending here....maybe going to the doctors tmr....fever right now....see la...go wad chalet....in the end outside caught in the rain....pain n suffering....dun wanna admit it but its now part of my life....haix....who to share with? i seriously haven't told anyone....i wan u to be the first to know....but now....

2007-05-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

the things you say dun mean much to you...but its alot to me...trying to smile dun really help....it really hurts me...but it kept coming....dun even know how to talk to you anymore...i wanna be the first...but im not...its always him...not me...

2007-04-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

as Esther requested...THANKS SECTION ONE!!!!!!!! ALWAYS BEEN LIKE A FAMILY WHEN IM THERE EVEN THOUGH IM LIKE AN EXTRA....seriously....its the only section i have been n seen it grow...i really want to thank them from the bottom of my heart...gonna start being alone again...always de...haix....

2007-04-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

finally got it...things wont work out...so....

2007-04-28T08:50:00.000+08:00

today appreciation day i guess? haha...those whose names are mantioned are those tat really impacted my life...
Elicia...
u are really a sister to me n im really glad tat i know you...if not...im not who i am now...know know? u taught me alot of things like how to make a chocolate expire, make up n stuffs,play guitar etc...love you man...
Munir...
even though u are a guy but i gotta say....love you too...lol....can type la...but really cant say face to face...2 man saying tat like gay but u oso taught me alot of things...like clarinet while we were in sec 2...haha...but kids...if u come across tis blog dun try crossing...haha
Sing Yee...
haha...when u were in sec 1 yoke ting said to me tat u are kindda cute...remember we went out together with anita n shannon? yea...i doubt so since u have stm...anyway..u changed alot n really quite cute...HAHA...but anyway...thx for all the things u did with me like....lamed together? haha...
well...there are still ppl i wanna thank but i think tell in person better..n very tired n sick cause caught a cold last night cause we gotta stay at the CORRIDOR...didnt slp n my eyes...pain...am i meant to walk through my life alone?

2007-04-28T08:16:00.000+08:00

haix...last night went to celebrate arthur's birthday...in the end....haha..anyway...i thought through alot of stuffs...firstly...i'm really gratefully tat i came to know those sec 5 tis year...n i really wanna thank elicia n munir....u guys really are like family to me....haha...even though i graduated u guys gave me a feeling of being back in the old days....cause i really felt lonely somehow...i thought tat attracting attention can make me have more friends...but i was wrong....all in the end left me...haix...i oso wanna thank yi xuan....all of u really are like my family...no words can really measure the gratitude i have for you all...te quan...u are right...i cried last night...i oso wanna thank u for being with me....u really are a fun person to be with...but now...i'm so depressed...sing yee...can i know? i doubt so...

2007-04-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

Joyce n me...nice pic...serious...

2007-04-23T17:32:00.000+08:00

Xiao Mi Feng n me...hahaha...cute girl...
Brian...so small...am i tat short when i was in sec 1?haha...

2007-04-23T11:57:00.000+08:00

My beloved SECTION!!!!!
Natalie n me...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
OH MY GOSH!!! SHE'S SO CUTE!!!
gosh...always take pic with xiao mei mei...cant make it..haha

haha...my Darling n me....look sooo much better than the previous 1
cool man....

2007-04-23T07:15:00.000+08:00

i was wrong....i thought i could forget u...i was wrong...big time...its juz tat wad am i to you when we are together with other ppl...feel so insignificant ....my feelings...hurt me alot...its juz tat i came back on Friday night..n i went to band on saturday...i dun feel back...u know...its cause u didn't really give me the feeling of being back...somehow....i was lost along the way...waiting for u to pick me up....can you? soo neglected....haix....sometimes i wonder whether im existing or not...but now i know....guess im blind not to know before...too dark i guess...

2007-04-22T08:49:00.000+08:00

i've promised myself not to associate myself to her anymore...i'm going to do tat no matter wad it takes....thx for everything up till now....

2007-04-21T04:35:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH!!!! never knew tat i love Singapore SO MUCH!!! haha....went to Thailand...juz came back last night....haha...its so hot there lor...i dun really have to leave the house n i have sun burn....let me tell u the whole journey....

day 1

reached Thailand at erm...10++ close to 11?? anyway...customs included....so leaving from airport to bus station...the distance very far lor...need to seat in taxi for 30-40min++....n the taxi was going at more than 100km/h.....fast man...the more amazing thing is tat there are faster car going at an insane speed...i was in the taxi n it was going at 100++km/h...than tis car came zooming in....i was like SHOCKED...GOSH!!! SO FAST!!!...any way reach the bus station at 1130 or so...by right no bus to my mum's kumpong...but by left i got in a bus...but GOSH!!! no seats...the company is so clever tat they bring up extra chairs...so im seating at the extras...nothing to lay on....n the journey was like 4h++...hate tat...but anyway...reached home at ard 4+....everyone is like so happy to see me....its like 5 years since they lat saw me...yea...its a long time...anyway...went to market....its amazing how everyone knows me...n i dun even remember them....haha...went to tis shop then tis auntie will go..."wow...u grown so big already...last time saw u u were tis big....now grow so tall"....n it goes the came for quite a num of stalls....n i was SO SHY LOR....but all i did was smile n go SAWADIKAB(i dunno how to spell..haha...for reference girls is ka...not kab...kab is for guys....)so reached home...eat...slack till night time...

day 2

woke up eat n went to SHOP....my mum told me tat my cousin(19 year old girl) was meeting us there....when i was shopping for shoes(saw tis very nice white colored shoes...wanted to buy....haix...but no size le....sadded...in the end nvr buy) i saw this lady came over....looked quite familiar...GOSH!!! MY COUSIN...she changed so much lor....almost couldn't recognize her...haha...went home together....then my auntie n grandma said "if u 2 were to go market together ppl might ask who is those 2 couples"...i was like...GOSH!!! anyway...im the main attraction in my village...haha...other than my looks they commented tat i walked like a sissy....if i walked manly in Singapore i would got beaten up...so...haha...

day 3

wad do you know? its Thai's new year...everyone was like splashing water n drinking alcohol ....n everyone was offering me....n gosh...it lasted for 3 days...

(haix...continue next time....still very long.....VERY.......LONG............

2007-04-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

haha....it has been a long time since i last blog....hmm...nothing much happened...other than im not
taking my o's tis year...long story...anyway....wad happened last saturday was tat after band i went to eat with my "dearest" sister elicia,yi xuan n simon to eat kfc....haha...while eating simon said y my name emmanual....then he said he wanna change his name...to eauto...(u know? EmMANUAL...E-AUTO...)haha....lol....some how elicia got clutch as her name...then yi xuan as gear....haha....after tat went to elicia house to play...haha...in the end went there to play with make up...hahah...i look very feminine....lol....if im born a girl confirm very pretty de...haha...then took some gross pic with simon cause he oso....got the pic but i dun wanna post....SUPER GROSS!!! haha...but if u wan to see it go to simon's friendster....haha...tat same time some of the ppl went to mr neo de bbq....haix...the main thing tat happened was tat sing yee fell...called her the next day...seems quite serious to me...hope it gets better....haix....then past few days oso talked to my xiao mi feng....haha...guess who...haha....its JOLENE...know know?anyway...on sunday didnt go anywhere...other than meeting up with my xiao mi feng...went bk n eat....im the onli one eating la...so after tat went library return books...then went walk walk..walk till kiddy palace...super interesting....i told her i wanna buy something for someone...then she told me a suggestion....haha...THX!!!...gotta take tat into consideration...haha...then lastly ended at courts...haha...then she went home...after tat i met up with kian hong....haha...super funny man...love being with him...then play play play...then went his house...i was super honoredman...im the 1st person in band to go to his house...whahahahaha!!!!haix...somehow memories can be very interesting....u initially dun remember wad happen...but when u forgotten abt it it juz comes back....like the time went kbox on chinese new year....finally remembered wad happen....haha...anyway...i really liked the song jian ou....seems like a duet...haha...ROMANTIC...lol...anyway...not many ppl know tat later im flying to thailand to visit my mum's family...it has been such a long time since i went there...4-5 years? haha...quite excited...but gotta miss alot of ppl....especially ******* n xiao mi feng n "dearest" sister n pei juan n many many....btw...it has been such a LONG time since i last talked to pei juan...anyway...no matter wad u do kor kor will always support u de...i wont change no matter wad...tats my promise to you...even though sometimes i might seem like i dun care...but in fact i'm caring the whole time...its juz tat sometimes i dont feel right...the way u look at me....makes me sad....FOR CVMB

do ur best for syf...give in all u hav...cause tis IS UR BAND...not the alumni's....get the gold with honor YOU all wanted....DO IT FOR URSELF....dun bother about those who graduated...haha...tats wad i wanna say to u all...do it for urself...haha...hope tis makes sense...

2007-04-07T02:08:00.000+08:00

it seems tat way to me....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR NEO!!!
haha...went to listen to compass....gosh....they improve ALOT!!!! hope u guys will work harder....haha...went to back to school n went to gay with te quan for awhile....GOSH!!! he really like gay man...but any way....i really like playing with him..after tat went to jurong to celebrate mr neo's birthday...went west mall n ate cake...nice man!!! thx jian how a.k.a TM King...haha...then went to watch mr bean...haha...juz reach home...sian sia...

2007-04-05T09:15:00.000+08:00

u look so much better when im not around...really feel like n extra...
haha...watching show tis few days...nothing to do...haha...i dunno wad came to me but i love talking about the sun recently...haha...wanted to go swimming last two days but in the end at home...
y is it like tis?so close yet so far...forget it la...there are somethings tat will nvr change...

2007-04-01T12:49:00.000+08:00

hmm....i dont know why im doing tis....juz to entertain sing yee i guess

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

six weird things about me...(even though there is nothing weird)
1.still wan tat thing i wan the most... =x(if u know wad i mean)
2.i have tat "ah beng" look...but i very guai de(i think)...
3.cant survive without talking on phone(u know who i mean)...
4.love my wife...cant bear to see her being blown by other ppl....
5.dun really like to go out in a group....
6.LOVES night time...

six ppl tat are chosen...
1.SING YEE(wow...if tat continues u gotta write alot man)
2.elicia
3.ai ling
4.arthur
5.jessica
6.fion

lol....

2007-03-31T00:40:00.000+08:00

WHA!!!! i was eyed by a gay....didn't know i was TAT attractive...hahaha...came back from alumni....flute too many player....so hav to transfer to second...in the end tanny ask pei xiang to go over...but he very funny...oso play 1st....haha...haix...feels so strange not talking to you...really sadded...actually i understand...but can u tell me personally...PLZ!!!

2007-03-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

today is like...wow...haix....went band with xin yu then taught sec 1 flautists...oh my gosh....one of then is sooooo cute...called brian...haha....so short....some sort nerdy....but....CUTE....so anyway...my section again all shui ge mei nu....haha....do i really look tat old??? then went for dinner....OH MY GOSH!!!! kenneth sooooooooo CUTE lor...WHAHAHAHA!!!! interesting...then kenneth n simon like playing all the way....haha....funny sia...n for all my juniors...DUN GIVE UP!!!!!CHIONG FOR 12 DAYS CAN LE...JIAYOU!!!!

2007-03-29T14:10:00.000+08:00

nonono...i'm wrong....this aint no goodbye yet....to end it here is against my conscience....dunno how u feel but is tat really wad u wan? one thing is for sure is tat tis is the first time i ever felt tis way....dunno where tis confidence is coming from but u r someone special n i feel tat i shouldn't give up....if i do i'm going to regret....big time...so no matter wad i feel it's worth the while...

2007-03-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

today nothing much...went for dinner with artur then went home...actually did alot stupid thins....then yesterday went eat wit joshua they all...super funny sia....haha...if wan to blog very long...so haha...main point is super funny.....well...since u already said it then...bye bye i guess...wont be bothering u le...

2007-03-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

haha..nothing much happened...other then today met with some ah lians....GOSH!!! hate it man....then went to eat...after tat went home....chat with sing yee...talked about terrorism...actually is when she took 89 home....the bus broke down outside compassvale primary...then everything shut down....she said tat the first thing she thought of is terrorist attack....HAHAHA!!!! funny sia....singapore needs ppl to be vigilant...n there u have it...haha...then dunno how talk abt room temperature....lol....in the end ended the call at 11+(if im not wrong)...called ashley(ailing) n lamed...haha...even though she quiet quiet but she can get pretty lame...(actually its very)...haha....n dunno how i got the name francis(i think like tat spell...anyway...who cares right? play play onli....n ppl....dun xiang y y...francesca n i friends only...because fion said her name was fion heather or something cause F Horn...so i C Flute....so called caesar francis....sing yee is samantha something...the funniest is jessica...haha...JESSICA JIMMY...lolx....)yea....planning to go band later as in later...hanar...so...yea...gotta go...

i guess i really think too much liao....so anyway...im really fine now...actually begining to like her more n more....so muz gambate...AFTER O LEVEL...i'm gonna ask again...hope its gonna be successful tis time....

2007-03-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

haha...ok le...haix....o'level $650!!!! EX SIA!!!! sadded...but nvm...gotta work hard since im paying...gosh....last saturday went escape...haha...super fun...it was like WOOHOO but later at ard 6+ all no energy le....1st i woke up last saturday wanting to go out cause parents was out...so called sing yee...then dunno how ended up really going...so i called the guys...1st went munir's house n we went to cp...then waited for joshua , pei juan , kim ,hui min,bennett n lastly arthur...he was so late lor...but nvm...took 89 n met up with sing yee...when we reach we went to the 1st ride...the "superman" thingy....then pei xiang n andy joined us....then we went to play all the rides....being with pei xiang n bennett is REALLY FUNNY!!! the viking ship thing was so boring lor...but they like going to die like tat...haha....then dunno played wad then bennett dun wan play le...it was like so early...haha...then we ALL went on to play go cart...super fun....i was like the 4th or 5th when i started but ended up 2nd...haha...it was like all the guys(me,joshua,munir,peixiang,andy,bennettn arthur) planned to like slow down to wait for all...but in the end joshua went *VROOM* all the way...1st overtook arthur then munir...then peixiang caught up....i was like wow...his cart is very fast lor....but in the end i still maintain...when about to finish saw joshua...he was waiting for no. 2 to come(tats me) at the slope...so we dashed down all the way...dun give chance...but joshua won...(cause of gravitational pull i guess...)really fun....the next day went to supported joash for his campus superstar....actually planned to meet sing yee 1st then go interchange find arthur...but haha...i overslept...when we reach there we met up with the rest....then blah blah blah blah....haha....yesterday went to salvation army to support cvss cause they are performing jalan jalan...wanted to see how they improved but haix....onli improve a little....but i know they are nervous...so dun give up...JIAYOU!!!!went for dinner(for me its more like supper) with kah yuen n the others....but when they saw miss wong(my fav. teacher) they all like gone in an instance....haha....then elicia n yi xuan came...they told us tat miss wong saw them but she didnt say anything....so kah yuen n i was thinking tat the others ran away for wat?haha...then went home with munir,elicia,simon n yi xuan....played at my opp. blk....played like mad like tat..haha...wrote so many things....see you next time....

if im ok im not really a human le...haix....really felt sad...its like being played....haix...I CRIED MAN....gosh....in my years who have seen me cried....other than my batch n tat time when results are released....no one else le...its like its really hurtful...but who to tell...NO ONE....seriously no one...even though they said "dun worry...i understand how you feel"...they dont...feel so lost yet no one to share....how i wish tat u tell me something...

2007-03-22T07:38:00.000+08:00

oh gosh...cant bring myself to really smile...even though i know but my 17 year old side of me juz cant stop thinking....i cant turn to anyone...i need to know it from you...but if u prefer to keep to urself then its fine...cause i already know wad u going to say...GOSH!!!! fan leh....

2007-03-20T06:59:00.000+08:00

can anyone tell me wad activities are available at night? seriously need one...nvr been so pathetic before...

2007-03-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

hmm...out for a few days i guess...dun bother to call or anything...if it happens tat jess you came across my blog...you can keep the sakae to urself first...

2007-03-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

sick these past few days...dunno wad's wrong...n for some reason i feel strange....inferior or demoralize or scared or...totally no idea....it's my first time having this struggle...

2007-02-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

well...its not the 1st day i'd known you...no matter wad you say or do,i know...u dun hav to lie to me...i'm not even sure i'm going...but u had to say....well...i'm alone again i guess....it may sound simple but i took it to the heart...haix...no more strength to carry on...

2007-02-23T12:00:00.000+08:00

whaha!!! yesterday went wild wild wet...played till like crazy...woke up n went to wait for sy...planned to meet at 1215 but in the end i reach there by 1230...n i thought i was late...she came later than me...n i was waiting at her void deck....chey....girls...haha...so anyway...made our way to DTE n met up with arthur...while waiting for the rest we counted cars n buses n motorbikes...lost...super lame...then both of them started playing...haha..kids...so any way....munir tat grp came n the guys went on 1st...we bought the card n so on n so forth n waited for pj , jess n kim...leaving sy behind....cause she's waiting for fion ,ailing n hui min...when we all entered we had a small locker problem...1st is tat we need to squeeze all our bags in(me ,munir n arthur)...then had a problem locking it...haix...so when it was done we went on playing....played till 7+...when we went to the lockers again there was a problem...haix...bad locker day i guess...haha...so went to eat n stuffs like tat...then went home...when i woke up...i was aching all over...had sunburns n turns out i'm darker than munir...sadded....it hurts...it really does...haha...no photo taken yesterday so dun expect any photos to be posted...haha

2007-02-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

Which one cuter???

2007-02-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

group photo
singing in the dark...haha...cant really see myself
on the way back...
cool...
woke up...wanted to go arthur's house but in the end went to sing yee's house...
before tat i met up with pj ,guan hong n jj...waited for kim for 45 min n waited for jess for 1 hour...oh man...girls...then after tat went k...haha...super fun...hui min ,joshua n arthur joined us...but joshua gotta leav early...haha...i think u all know wad he sang...after he left all of us like sian sian...so sang some super high de song....as in feelings high...very funny...while singing can jump on sofa...1st time sia...haha
cool...

2007-02-20T05:29:00.000+08:00

oh gosh...there is a very funny show called love letters....wanted to emo but in the end stayed up throughout the night laughing...

2007-02-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

cant help but to feel demoralized....haix...私が言いたいと思うすべてはi 愛である...hope you understand...

2007-02-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

haha...valentine juz ended...didnt really go according to plan but made me think through...so in the end i've made a desicion...haha...soon i can say....n thx for the necklace...even though dun look quite right...but hey...who knows...haha...

2007-02-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

haha...so long since i last posted....well...its already feb...1/12 of the year gone...alot has happen to me this past month...alot of ups but alot of downs equally as well...wad i learnt these past month is tat ppl are really hard to understand...they can be good to you but u'll nvr know when they will turn thier back...luckily my friends is limited...but i do treasure my family...and i really miss them...wan to tell them wad happen...but...nvm...they will know in time to come...haha...wad i wanna say to sing yee is tat u r not alone...when ppl play too much they will forget tat u hav feelings...well..tats all i can think of...happens to me all the time...but u are different...ur realationship with them are MUCH more closer than me...so treasure it...or u will live 2 regret...haha...hmm...hope tat the rest of u will understand wad my msn's nick means...haha..after this month i wun be seeing u all tat often le...seriously im quite sad but wad to do...haix...at the momment i feel very lost...dunno wad to do...all i need is tat one call...n things will go back to once it was...

2007-01-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

sian sia...almost a month le...gotta start my studies...nothing much really..sadded...

2007-01-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

still the same...but anyway..juz came back home from supper...for two night le i went out with andy they all...somehow i feel better...n its in the night...haha...anyway...today px n nd decided to drop at cp so i suggested tat i cycle them home...but the bike is so small we had to do stunt...(anyway...its a stunt bike)so i sitted inthe front, px cycle n andy juz stood on the stand...haha...the journey was short but it seems long...haha...like to be with them...so funny...

2007-01-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

haix...being home sux...really sad...juz who to go to? really have no idea...

2007-01-13T03:26:00.000+08:00

i feel like i'm becoming someone who doesn't sleep at night nor in the day because of the things i'm thinking about...it is true but i juz dun know how or when or wad...juz feel so weird...sleeping late n waking up super early dun really make sense...having all those stupid dreams really makes me wonder what kind of person i am...so many things troubling me yet i appeared normal to others...i took all the set backs, insults, prejudice, faults as if they were nothing...but the fact is that i no longer have my pride...it was gone the moment i held it in my hands....how come no one notices tat other than my beloved sister? i've already reached a point where breaking down is not a rare sight in my heaven...what i do is meaningless...everything i do makes me uncertain...haix...i'm now juz living for the sake of living, with no goals, no purpose, nothing....i wan to be the person i used to be...someone people will turn to, trust, play with, look up to...but it all seems like a sky...something that i cant reach...as each day passed...the blade is being pushed deeper into my heart...all i need now is someone to take it out for me...willing to share the burden n change me to who i used to be....but it's not going to be easy...

2007-01-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

Me and my Darling Junior

today went to band...i say...alot ppl nvr go...syf getting near le...still like tat...haix...so anyway...went band did nothing...sian...after that went to eat...ate alot...n yeah...i lost 5kg...n one more thing before i end...KIMBERLY!!! ICE-CREAM IS MINE!!! WHAHAHA!!!!

2007-01-10T11:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out to meet andy, johnathan, bennett and pei xiang for dinner in the end went to macdonald to wait for pei xiang cause he has yet to finish his work...while in mac we met chau koon n he sat down...some how he n johnathan entertained us alot!!!super funny...when pei xiang came we decided to go to swensens for ice-cream...ard 945+ mr er n mr neo came n we went for supper...we went to changi village to eat...at first we wanted to look for trans...but we took into consideration tat in the car there is one...so we change our mind...after tat went to old changi hospital to hunt for g*****super scary...even though we juz took a look it was super scary...then we went to punngol the hut...last night dunno wat happen to them la...want to see g*****...haha...haix...today have the interview for aerospace...in the end decided not to go...i juz dunno wad to do...LOST!!!wanted to go back to band...but i find it very difficult to face them...haha...i want to go n teach whoever plays the piccolo...IM SORRY XIN YUAN!!!! you are a very good player....tat is y you are needed for 1st...as for me...alumni practice seems to be more interesting...gives me the feeling of being back in sec one...new faces, everything new...gonna miss my wife in compass...finding one in shuqun...for those who knows me i dun need to explain wad WIFE means...in alumni i feel tat i am the weakest in flute...makes me more motivated to play better...the song we are playing is a really challanging piece for me...tat time sectional we played 6 bars...took me alot of tries to bluff through...whahaha...really turns me on...so excited...

2007-01-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

alot of things have happened to HLF...im gonna wash my hand off...no use getting so emotionally involved...because of this im unable to slp soundly n now...FELL SICK...n not onli me...someone oso fell sick...dunno wad has happen to HLF...SO MANY unnessary problems created...oso dunno wad the HACK are they doing...come on la...

2006-12-31T02:40:00.000+08:00

i feel like the biggest fool...even though i predicted it i'd neve expect it to be real...somehow i feel strange, guilty and lost...

2006-12-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

so long never blog...haix...failed my n level...very sad...quite demoralizing...now wanting to go to private school..have to work for it la....haix...the most saddening thing is tat i'm leaving my happy+lame family...haix...this few months is really meaningful to spend time with all my friends and got to know alot more in band...really gonna miss them...anyway...i moved from main band to alumni band le...the first practice was really interesting...cant wait for the next practice...

2006-11-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

grow up la...16 le...

2006-11-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

very irritated...today went to band n played the syf piece...then mr lee asked us to play bar 166 or something....then woodwinds under mr lee....then till a part where there is triplets mahx....then * de woman turn behind n bitch about flute de triplets...i mean come on la...who are u to comment on our playing...look at yourself...play like RUBBISH still dare comment...like tat still nvm....boss around like u very good like tat...say our triplets sound like quaver....come on man...how can tiplets play fast till sound like quaver...can think before u say or not...then when we were keeping our instrument...she wanted me to give back her stand...sound like attitude problem....what ur stand!! i use tis stand more than u...cant u put down ur clarinet 1st...n cant u see tat my pants is too wet to put my wife(flute)...instrument oso have feelings 1...tat is y u sound like RUBBISH....cannot make it lehx...super frustrated....i oso heard from my section tat today you pissed them off...come on la...seriously....who are you??????????????????-you count...this is how many ppl from my section you offended...keep RUBBISH-ING here n there...later i take the bin n cover ur head ah....ownself attract attention like no one business...act naive...act cute buay cute....trying to be funny...attract attention...irritating....RUBBISH....ya...n play quaver like crotchet...u think the song u compose 1 arhx...all have to wait for u mehx? all play the song got flow...ur's stuck by RUBBISH!!!no wonder the sun set....tats y need the help of the beat of mother earth...some more play till very irritating...i wanted to tell u but so sad...mr er said tat before me...worst than pei juan playing my piccolo...at least her TONE is better than ur RUBBISH...can take tat E/flat clarinet n throw away....oh ya...tat clarinet very expensive...RUBBISH!!!

2006-11-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

today is a very tiring day...went cycling in the morning n juz came back...but still its interesting...1st we went punggol to cycle...in the end ended up going to the beach to catch fish...trying to follow up to mr er's "kumpong life"...its a failure....haha...then after tat went to punggol plaza to rest n wash up...met up with sing yee...after tat went cycling to lavender juz to watch munir eat...anyway cycled back n all of us(bennett ,sing yee ,munir ,pei juan , joash n me)...then mat up with jessica , fion ,ailing ,simon n some person whose name i do not know...went to plaza n chatted for a while...but while we're talking ,fion finally learned how cycle...not bad for a first timer...wanted to go carpark n play but most of us are already dying so all went home...(next time wan go out with joash can...but not cycling....believe me....really dun...)

2006-11-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

wad sia...today sick so never go band....sorri sorri...anyway...like my new blog skin? tried alot of times then succed...seriously speaking...not much things have happened these past few days...well...tat is after the japanese exchange...haha...i'm planning to go japan in about 2 years time...during tat period i will save ALOT of money n try to learn how to speak n understand japanese...haha...not forgetting today is SIMON'S BIRTHDAY....WO!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH PEK....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.....

2006-11-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

whahaha...so happy...what happen was tat this past few days no mood to blog or do anything cause i'm really in a depressed mode cause of the photo thing....anyway...thanks to xin yuan i got their email....haha...so now hav a super high atmosphere at home....whahaha...when i got thier e-mail i had to consider using englise or jap...but in the end i used english...after 15 mins she replied....whahaha....so cool...yesterday they had nco camp...saw bennett n pei shan....bennett playing his trumpet...can see lor...he not playing at some part...well alot...n pei shan....sssooo outstanding wearing our band uniform....anyway...while on the way back got so irritated by a few ppl...super irritating....dun say abt them le...make me look older...older than i should look tat is...i'll be ending off here le la...

2006-11-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

today had an exchange programme with tomeikan high sch/secondary...super fun...after the performance we got into our groups n show the japanese ard our sch...my group very fun lor...all girls...quite nice...haix...during tat we played the paper ball or something...super funny...anyway...during dinner we talked...they super cute lor...then i ask them their age...WOW...they are younger than me lor...then they ask mine...they gave an unnessersary reaction lor...they told me who is cute among us n jianhao n simon falls under tat catogory...they said i'm handsome k...i'll always remember their name...junko n erinka(i onli interacted with 2 ppl)...after tat we took pictures together...i really took alot of photos lor...the photos i took today can compare with the begining of the year till now...haix...when they are abt to leave i realized tat i nvr took any pic using our camera...sad...really heartache...super depress...

2006-11-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

haix...wat to say...today at home slack...after tat had dinner with some of my gang...n tat adagio...irritating lor...keep hitting my head...headache know...

2006-11-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

today very interesting...after lunch there is this singing thing 4 this wednesday's exchange program with japanese students...cool huh? anyway...after tat "singing" mr tan asked 4 ppl to go 4 tis chinese orchestra thing...but in the end , 5 went...simon , shannon , francesca , joshua n me...super funny la...1st we went to the SCH (singapore concert hall) take pictures...then after the CO we went to the singapore durian to talk(tat is esplanade la)...while on the way there...we still took pictures of ourselves....super BHB...hahax...joshua is a joker man...while in the hall got scolding fm other ppl...after tat talk non-stop...keep doing stupid things with simon....haix...cant grow up...but its all thx to him tat simon n i can take alot of COOL pictures...

2006-11-05T10:40:00.000+08:00

ah....woke up late...i want to go service...haix...miss cell group n service very sad de lehx...haix...today planning to go cut hair with tian cai...yesterday in band played tis new song called paris sketches...a very nice song....but band i think cannot make it...so have to change song AGAIN lor...i really love tat piece...tis morning woke up n watched death note...its a nice show...but the main characters very evil...only L n some othes...anyway...found out alot of happening things in the band...but onli a little of some or nothing at all...wanted to join in the conversation but still...never mind...

2006-11-04T09:04:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog last nite but something happened to com...well...anyway...yesterday was quite an interesting day...went sectional till afternoon...became very hungry but"some" of the ppl wanted to talk abt a teacher's salary...had lunch at jalan kayu and i ate alot...when we came back from jalan kayu...we went compass height to settle down...bennett n i wanted to go to the gym so the rest oso wanted to go in...then this stupid security said tat those between 12 - 16 must be accompanied by an adult...well...bennett very sad lor...have ic ppl oso think fake 1...he look too young le...haha...in the end the only ones left in the gym was bennett n me...then we went to structure park n played "ice n water"...quite fun la cause its been a while since i played tat...after tat went debating...haha...while we debated...jessica realized tat she broke her toe nail...sad for her man...anyway...we almost had a fight...haha...but its fun la...n 1 more thing...do i look cool???

2006-11-03T07:51:00.000+08:00

last nite a friend came my house to watch his korean show..."stairway to heaven"(i think)...its a show tat the main characters nvr stop crying...ok la...not bad...well...he crack some few jokes...but after tat we talk a little before i sleep(tired la...after playing long hours)...he was quite pissed yesterday because of a group of ppl lied to him la...wat i wanna say is tat u guys dun really know him...jus say tat !?@#$%$ is going can le...there is nothing to lie de lor...haix...sad for him...but it's good to see you guys enjoying urselfs...

2006-11-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

wow...juz reach home after a whole day of playing...i'm really happy to be with you guys even though we are fm different section...so much to say...too little time...hahax~~~haix...my results are coming out soon...quite scared of the outcome...it's all because of my chinese la...cannot make it...i've really tried very hard lor...if really fail sure emotional breakdown...but i've planned out everything le...still...i'm sure to lose alot of things...

2006-11-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

hiie...first time doing a blog so...hahax...holiday here le...quite interesting la cause hav band...n band is so really fun lor...n adajio is so0 cute...erm..anyway...its good to go back to band la...so long nvr play my "wife"...which is my flute la...gtg liao..